The up keep with Humanity

To really grasp the basis of life is an impossible request when it is its own entity and we are only temporary fragments that appear on it's surface ...so the hope as an individual is lost and yet consumes what we need most "Humanity" there is no single definition for this word for it represents a race so if one loses humanity he has lost his race and as a result no longer human ......I Feel as the individual ...I feel I've lost my humanity ...I feel no longer human ......